突发奇想，总是如此

我是不是应该考虑写小说呢？我太爱发泄我所想的事和感受，刚刚开始重读New Moon 中文版，虽然说原本版是原汁原味，但是因为我不是很明白英文版的一些意思所以才会买中文版，而且是台湾版的，只是不喜欢他们翻译名字而已，很难记得的名字。新月，我明白为什么作者会把第二本小说名为《新月》，因为新月是月亮在黑夜中比较黑暗的一个时期，代表了书中女主角的黑暗时期，的确是书比电影好看，可是有些情节是很啰嗦的。电影只是书的简缩版而已但要看编剧如何简缩得好，老实说，不大喜欢这系列的编剧，一些细节减了许多，连人类朋友就4位，还有其他3位的，其中女的不大喜欢女主角的没有出现在电影里。

我总是身为旁观者去阅读这系列小说，我还是认为男女主角属于彼此。可能我喜欢快乐的结局，很老套但受在我身上。我从来都不晓得住在小镇是什么感觉，会忧闷吗？可是很容易就认识邻居，即是好事也是坏事。最近还蛮多想法想说出来，有时候会觉得自己很可悲；因为比较喜欢对部落格发泄或写日记，那就是我吧。可能很久没跟朋友出去玩了吧，很想念在学院的日子；我应该继续读书还是找好像当老师的工作做着呢？就是因为不过班，才作这份工的。如果是时候离开，我会离开的，一旦决定就不会反悔的。如果我够胆练习驾车又熟练的话，工作地方再远也不是问题，加上有自己的车的话…………

其实要当Freelancer 就要够胆，可是我又愿不愿意冒险又是个问题。明知道想太多是不会让问题消失，快要明年了，我是时候要决定开工画画，最重要的就是加强自己的技法了。其实当老师也不错嘛~ 不是吗？还是当摄影助理也不错嘛~ 还是需要一些贵人相助……迷失的感觉不好受。

Thoughful Thought

Actually after watching New Moon , i like that line in the Book version chapter four :

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

Honestly , i 'm sort of " in love" with someone on9 when i was 16 , but now it's not really a love at all , it's just that i'm enjoying been " love" by that guys , and i'm glad i get over him finally , and find him so childish and annoying , the most annoying guy ever . I don't really want to explain what's big deal about Twilight Saga , If Those guys , most of the guys , guys that's normal will think it's lame and kind of homo , okay...Gay ? Perhaps . I think i kind of attract to that kind of Romeo and Juliet type of love , forbbiden love , ya VAmp and Human love , most obviously man and girl ... it's so frustrating that i found out that guys that i like was like taken by someone else . I gotta admit i'm kind of traditional type person , not quite narrow minded but not that open either . I'm getting so fed up about finding someone , what if ....? But i don't want to rush thing , maybe i just least expect it and just let's it happen naturally . Hopefully i won't have any complicated problem , coz i like thing to be simple either love me or love me not .

I just realise that i sort of like writing in my own journal , but really , it's nothing personal , either u like my opnion or u don't , as simple as that .
Maybe i should consider to just write for fun , i like to be in my own world especially in my own wild imagination . Chinese , english ? chinese , english , even though i consider writing in chinese since it's my mother tongue . I don't care if someone read it or not , i like writing , not as a profession but as a interest , i like to write randomly , it seem to be no point but sometime i would randomly think of some interesting idea. I think i kind of admire the way Stefanie Meyers write twilight , she not meant to be famous , not intend to be , it's just for fun . I wanted to have a job just like that , and sometime forget that i'm working but doing what i like . I hope someone stop asking me why i working in Organic Shop instead of working in Art Gallery , or as a designer etc etc etc , no worry , i not planning to stay longer , 1 and a half or less than that . An art teacher in the future , not Art lecturer , just teacher.

Talking about New Moon , yes ; all about new moon , do u have a problem with that ? Planning to just watch 2nd time in Cinema and when i finish download it , i will watch as much as i wanted . Then watch Christmas Carol maybe this saturday or FRiday when i was in off day . Writier , writer doesn't seem to appear on me . I never picture myself writing a book , no , never , i always thought that i'm suck at describe thing , the colour , the shape and etc etc ...i never describe them so detailed . i always fail on essay ....*sigh*

WHAT A BORING BLOG !!!!!!!!!

I just too lazy to updated something with a picture ....My stupid camera is spoiled :/

NEw Moon ...YAY !

Time passess by ....it's seem to be appear on the e-mail , Bella meant to send to Alice , Edward 's sister ....i think Bella that play by Kristen Stewart is nice ....i dun think everyone know how to appreciate it , but i dun really care if they like it or not , i think overall it's a not bad movie ...maybe not what i expected it to be at least , i'm not that disappointed like Twilight , Much better than Twilight in my opnion. I can't help if most of the ppl watch it said that it's boring or whatever or suck ....i have seen and heard many bad review by those movie critic , i'm kindda open though after that church camp , i know i shouldn't be that obsessed with these thing , but i just fell in love with the saga series ....it's like my own brand of Heroin ...you would addicted ..*sigh*

okay , okay ....next week Christmas carol , i shouldn't be effected by ppl opnion , they just said what they think , and i said what i think too , i think it's awesome . It's breakup , and it's slow of course ppl would hate it ....maybe i 'm kind of slow that why i like it , and i like slow song , it 's fit the mood of the whole movie theme , break up and together again , everybody feel sorry for Jacob , am i the only person think that Jacob and Bella should remain friend , like Best Friend , and i 'm just that kind of person that fell for forbidden love kind of thing , which is why i dun have anyone rite now . We all have our wild side , i just don't really show it out , i wish i can be that reckless like Bella riding motorbike and clift diving ....especially listen to that " Friend" song ...but i don't some of the song might fit it nicely , just that some song feel weird in some scene . Boring movie , maybe but it 's still a great job by christ Weitz....

I consider watching it again .....maybe

Forbidden to rememnber , terrified to Forget

I dun have some motivation to continue or start paint , updated my blog , sketching or whatever .....i need somone to critic my work not just like ..." oh , it's not bad " what's not bad ? what 's good ? what's bad ? Tell me about it , forget the blog title ....it's a good line from New Moon novel , 2nd installment in TWilight Saga ...Whatever .....ARghh...it's so frustrating , like i was locked in a 4 wall room and dark and nobody is around me ...okay , okay maybe i just being dramatic ....It's like i have been " break up" with my own artwork for a long long long long long long long time ......I feel like i have been living a repeating life which is not a good thing , i dun like to be a robot repeated the damn same thing everyday , it's suck ! i know i would quit this damn job someday but not now .....i dunno i want to risk it , for the sake of better future ....it's not like this job suck , even though sometime it's look like it might be suck .....honestly yeah !

I have dislike for some mainstream music now , i wanted to listen to something different rather those pop not meaningful song .....it's like everyone like junk food but it's not healthy ....pop is just like junk food we like ....and it's not healthy it just my own opnion ....take it or leave it or whatever . i rather listen to some real music , singer and the music instrument ...or musician and their music instrument ..their own music , they express their emotion through their music instrument or song or music that's what i call music , and that's what the music is all about , deep meaning lyrics music plus some instrument , piano , violin , guitar , drum .....ummm not some pop song dancer , showing off some skin ... or lip-syncing.....totally dislike that ....i dun even listen to local radio station anymore and i dun like hip-hop song ....i mean some noisy hip-hop song ....i just dun ....and the aVril that i like used to be playing guitar and dress better than now ....better without Abbey DAwn i suppost ....i dunno ....hopefully her new album is much better and the image of the whole album is similar to UMs album

I wish i know how to write music not song lyrics....i only know how to play some simple rhthymn ...I need some fresh new air ....staying in a same level and same place make me wanna puke .....

One of my FAv

很久没画画，心都荒凉了………………

不管是画画也好还是有关艺术的，没有动力让我开始，那个动力很快就死掉了。可能是我开始对工作麻木了，我知道我应该有个全新的看法，要有个突破，要跳出这个框框，这不是我一直想证明的吗？ 用另一个角度去看每一件事，可悲的是，我做不到，就算我花心思在那幅画，会有人欣赏吗？我刚做这份工是否太天真了吧……很想跟我的旧同学开一间店，买我们的作品，是否可以实行呢？现在热忱还在，可能我画肖像开始热身吧，眼高手低……唉！ 我不认为我是艺术家，我还在为我喜欢的是畚斗着，我应该继续升学还是拿经验做工呢？ 很多有关艺术的活动都很少参与了，可是我没有放弃，我还是要对艺术有热忱，我应该继续画画，作新的作品，织一些娃娃也好……好过什么都没有。

很想去不同的地方走走，呆在同一个地方很闲了…………不懂为什么，我在这个公司学的东西不能进我的脑里，很容易就忘记，是否是因为不是感到兴趣的东西所以听进去的都会忘记，应该是吧~ 我很容易心不在焉的，发白日梦，可是我对我的能力有点怀疑，最近发现很模糊，蒙蒙咚咚……清醒一点啊~ 不行了~ 下个星期的休息日必须做点东西，踏脚车也好，画素描也好……有一张好过没有吧~ 最近发现好像在重复做同样的一件事，如果当老师好一点，真烦阿~ 以后要做什么工好呢？至少我没事有事读一读吧~ 船到桥头自然直 ， Let it be , Let it be , Let it be ........

要省钱真的超难的，下个月绝对不要乱花钱哦~ 我真的看到Mid Valley 就显，很想去1 Utama 逛一逛。没有买东西，看看走走也好啊~ 很想找朋友一下，聊一下也好，我不懂我几时才可以习惯驾车，越快越好咯！ 大家的空饮茶啦~ 很想去旅行……去山上大喊一声……好爽快一下……

Walking beneath the line is boring , my everyday life is boring , wanted to break rule , wanted to do something to make me feel alive again .....Everything around me is fast moving .....everything is changing when i turn around out of my control .....i dun mind going to time square or sungai wang or maybe pavillion ...whatever that make me feel different , mid valley is so boring .......or maybe KLCC ...once in a while , art gallery , open up my eye to something new ....something fresh .... when can i go to kelantan to see my friend ? when i have the time to have teh tarik with my friend ? when i have the time to draw or even painting ? do sculpture ? i miss that happy time and free time during college time , i dun see how some people dun love to study the course they interested in ...questioning the never ending question

New Moon Soundtrack <3 it ...YAY !

Love most of the song .....Awesome soundtrack , Nice own playlist of New Moon Director